I had to take a break from blogging for a while. I am dealing with health issues that are very real and scary. The biggest part of being scared is knowing that if I do not change me and my life that I will not be here to see my children become amazing adults and have families of their own.
I have previously stated about wanting to have some type of bariatric surgery. I was really wanting to have a sleeve done but with health insurance being what it is, there was nothing like that in my future. Now I am telling you this because in May I was at my heaviest ever 363 lbs, my blood pressure was on the rise and had become a diabetic. I would fall asleep in my recliner in the middle of the day for no reason and I had no motivation.
When I finally was able to meet my primary care physician, the time had come. I was at the point to become accountable for me and my actions. I was so over seeing others being successful at their weight loss because of the surgery and knew it was my turn to do what I needed. So at this appointment the doctor recommended me to join weight watchers. I did what he recommended.
I was anxious to say the least on that first day. I left the house early to find the meeting. With mapquest being mapquest it took me on a round about way to discover a city I knew nothing about. I was so upset by the time I found the meeting place…I was crying. The tears streaming down my face just made me even more mad because now I was late.
I put my big girl pants on and walked in. I felt very uneasy upon entering the door. Building up enough courage to stand on a weight scale ,letting a complete stranger see what I weighed. Not knowing if I was being judged . Little did I know that is not at all going on. I have found my place to be. I have become more relaxed and able to open up to the strangers I sit among. Each one of us have an issue and it is with food.
I have always heard that admitting to a problem is the first step in recovery. I now know it is true. The problem I have with food is the potatoes, rice and pasta. Not getting in any type of exercise is right up there too. So I have made an attempt to correct both situations. I am now tracking what I eat. I am very mindful of what I am putting into my mouth. We have also made a purchase of an elliptical. Because of other health issues, my orthopedic doctor told me for exercise it should be either a stationary bike, elliptical or swimming pool. Well I definitely can not afford a swimming pool. We happened to go into the local Walmart and low and behold up in front of the cash registers was a line of exercise equipment they had clearenced out. They had $577 elliptical marked down to $225 and the paper attached said “ADDITIONAL 50% OFF AT REGISTER”. I was totally astonished. So we bought said elliptical. It is on our back porch and I walk 10 mins a day for 4 days a week. I am working my way up.
Since May I have gone down 29.5 lbs. I can not see it myself but hopefully in the near future I will.